谁的青春不迷茫

E verything I never told youAfter I finish reading the book, I closed the book with a heavy heart.The writer, Celeste cg,a girl whose p arents are both scientists, and both form HongKong. Celeste and her parents come to America when she was a c hild.And she grew up in Pennsylvania, being the only chinese girl in her school, she suffers the loneiness and the dolefulness because her yellow skin. And when she grew up, she writes this book to tell the readers how hard she suffers for being an immigrant.This book is another story of why our home, a place which should bewarm and a shelter, bacame a place imprison our dreams. Marylin, theheroine of this book,has a tragetic family background,and because ofthat, her daughter Lydia was forced to realize her mother's dream.Without any friends, she has to endure the loneliness at school andcater to her parents. Mraylin, the mother, use to be a top student of awell-known university, her dream is to become a doctor ,butunfortunately, her dream was crushed until she met James- the father ofLydia, an immigrant, all he want is become 'a normal people'. Everyoneseems hiding something from their relatives, and these hiding secretsleads to the tragedy- Lydia's suicide." Lydia is dead"(P1)That's the first sentence of the book. The story hasn't begin yet, theauthor has already tell us the end, and that makes me feel more curiousabout the book. Read on, and you will find the complicated truth behind Lydia's death. James always want to be normal but Marylin awalys wants to be different, may be batter than others. But the irony of fate make them fell in love with each other and made them both don't know how to communicate with the people they love and all they do is push them forword, no matter they want or not, or ignore them, like James do to his son, who spending all his lifetime blend in white.Marilyn intended to go back and continue her studies to become a docto r after her son, Nathan, was born, but after a second pregnancy with Lydi a she remained a homemaker for eight years. After receiving news of her estranged mother's death, Marilyn returned to her childhood home to d eal with her mother's things and had a crisis after realizing that she achie ved the homemaker life her mother always desired for her. And in summer 1966, when Marylin wants to take her career and dream again, she found that she was pregnant, again. And only at that time did she realize that her dream has been crushed by reality, she has to give up the hope of being a doctor, so she put all her hope on Lydia, she starting to trained her math and chemistry aggressively, in order make Lydia the best student in her class and get a larger chance to go to medical school. During Marylin's absence, Lydia's father- James starting a totally different action, he buy tickets for Lydia and her friend so that they can enjoy a movie and have a good time, all James wants to do is teach her daughterto become a normal people, just live her life like others do. These two confict ways of education make Lydia feel confused. And the way James ignored his own son, Nath,makes Nath jealous about Lydia, so one day James pushed Lydia into the lake even though she can't swim. And Lydia may realized that only in the water may she felt peace and relaxed, that's why Lydia choose to drown in the water as the end of her life. James and Marylin both ignored to teach their children how to love and how to be loved."If you don't want to smile, then don't smile, this is very important"I feel the author is not only talking to herself , but also to us. Lydia wasa child once, laugh or cry as she likes. But since when Lydia starting to oppress herself? Like most of us did in our growth. We starting to wear a mask of indifference, we hide ourselves under our white teeth smlie. Our life become an established path, we always so clear about what we should do and what we shouldn't. Just like another story line in the book- Jack and Nath. I believe Jack love Nath, but this is forbidden at that time, so Jack has to hide his feeling carefully, and putting a mask instead, in order to take care of Nath. He didn't care about whether Nath would hate him. Jack changes his girlfriend and pretending himself a bad guy so he could keep loving Nath. And all this makes the pure love a bitter taste. Famliy may sometimes set in the name of love, whats terrified is the door is always on the latch, but you are not able to walk out of the door,all you can do is roaring, and accept all the arrangements of love, until you drowned or discereted by time.。